Taking time off has never been my strong suit when working a job. I don’t remember ever calling in sick unless I really was too sick to work. “Responsible” is my middle name. I was raised to own my responsibilities and to do them regardless of my desire to do them. Work was always as enjoyable as play, and it shows in my daily routine. My father and mother are both “workaholics” and spend more time doing what they need to do than doing what they want to do. Maybe what they need to do has translated into what they want to do.
I remember as a child listening to my parents talk about the business they owned together. They would speak of the employees, financial issues, new products, finances, success they were having, failures, and all the things business owners discuss. I loved listening in on those conversations. To me they were fun and interesting and a cool way for my parents to connect. I watched as my parents would communicate and seemed to be most kind to each other and most aligned when they spoke about business. This, of course, gave me the idea that I needed to marry a man who I could do this with also. I wanted to be just like them and have those cool things to talk about, and that topic of connection with my husband. As I look back on my childhood, life was all work, all the time.
True to form I married a man who owns his own business and runs his own show. It has not always been easy, or what I thought it would be, and we have taken many blows from the burden of being business owners. But I have always been grateful that my husband understood the complexities of business and the power of being an entrepreneur. It was such an important part of my childhood that I don’t think I could have related well to a 9-5 man. It also has been a way to avoid living fully in the moment for me. A way to avoid the joys of life because there was always something that needed to be worked on.
In my love for business and creation, I have had many setbacks. I have spent a lot of time learning how to balance work, family and fun. It has not been an easy curriculum for me. Focus on one topic for hours, days and weeks at a time is more my style. So when I decided to take a break, I took a big break!
I’ve spent the last year playing, studying, recuperating and enjoying some much needed time in repose. I’ve called it my sabbatical. I have been learning, but most of it has been through experiences, which are the feminine process of growth. The masculine form of book study has always been my favorite form of learning, but this past year I have allowed myself the process of just experiencing life and letting God show me and teach me principles I needed and wanted to learn. The last time I did this was 13 years ago when I began my journey down this road of ascension. It was the beginning of all of this. It’s when I was taught R&R, desire, paradox, truth, judgment, God’s language, grace, gifts, and creation. I’ve learned that a good break from the work of life is one of the most powerful places of growth we can put ourselves into.
God wants to teach us. He wants us to have experiences to bring into our body the truth of all things. That is one of the main reasons we are on a world where things are slow, hard, physical and a lot of work. But they are also fun, creative, interesting, and easy. If we could have learned the same things in heaven we would have stayed there. But we didn’t we’re all here.
I recommend keeping your mind active and always have something your learning through scripture reading, reading good books, and studying topics of interest to you. But don’t forget that your God is a god of great and powerful physical lessons and truths. He is teaching you every day and wants you to have the truth distilled into your body one experience at a time. Take the time to be in every moment. Feel the emotions of each experience. Ponder on what God is showing you through your personal university program and curriculum. Enjoy your life and remember that it’s not a test. It’s an experience to be loved. Love your life. All of it! And you will find that God is with you to a new and greater degree than you ever imagined possible. Take a sabbatical from the struggle and find JOY and your truth in the journey.